Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Shall Be Known As Pumpkin

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I think it started with my kitchen.

MY KITCHEN WILL NEVER BE CLEAN ENOUGH.

I said in my head as I pulled out stacks of mismatched Tupperware in the cabinet below the messy drawer.

There's goobers everywhere...

And I had to stop and wonder where the hint of despair was coming from in my mental monologue.

This isn't like you, Jane, you can handle goobers. Goobers are part of your game.

(I call myself Jane, in my head. It started mid-teenage years.)

And then the next day I noticed I was feeling inexplicably sea-sick. The tiled kitchen floor was sloshing around and I felt green and pukey.

Oh Jane, you got yourself the flu.

But the sea-sickness never amounted to much, by the way of buckets or toilets, except I fell asleep only moments after I tucked in the children that evening at sun down. The next day, it was the same, and the next. And the next until, you know, suspicions started to mount.

Chup was gone when I decided to take the pregnancy test.

He learned about it on his phone after a day on set acting in front of a green screen.

Four children. FOUR. We never...thought...

Infertility is such a shadow. It sneaks up on you and overwhelms you and tells you things like "you'll never have children" or "you'll never have any more children" and then one day you have three with one on the way in spring and you're forced to admit you listened to the lies of your former nemesis for too long.

When he arrived home Chup had a massive smile on his face.

"You're excited!"

I observed.

"Yes, I am."

He said.

And I remembered the first thought that came to my mind when I read POSITIVE on the pregnancy test earlier that day.

Of all the things I love to do in this world, having babies with Christopher Kendrick is my most favorite of all.

You are a blessed woman, Jane.







152 comments:

Delirious said...

Congratulations! I have 4 children, but I always wished I could have had more.

Tiffany said...

Congratulations. :)

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Alissa said...

Yay! For qualifies you for sainthood!

sweet and lovely crafts said...

That is wonderful news. What a blessed life you have!

~Love Lis said...

You are blessed!!! I'm glad to see you happy. :) Hooray for baby #4!

Becca said...

Yippee!!!!

Dee, the Crafty Chick said...

So excited for you! Congrats!!

Donna Wenker said...

You and your husband are so blessed as are your children! Enjoy your blessings!

Christine said...

Congratulations!! That is awesome news!!

Catherine Dabels said...

Awesome. Awesome. Awesome. Congrats.

sometimesacactus said...

Felicitations! This is such sweet news! Hooray for brown-eyed pumpkins!

Shelly Cunningham said...

I am so ridiculously happy for you!

Sarah said...

I have so many tears of happiness for you! What a blessing and gift! Miracles are so, so real! I love the miracle of motherhood. Congrats to you and your beautiful family!

Bridget said...

CJane, I love this post. Congratulations. I am so happy for you and Chup and the whole family. I think you guys are great.

Charity Suzuki said...

Congratulations!! :) <3

Guh said...

congrats! So happy for you!


...and thanks for the shout out to those of us still in the shadow :)

Rixa Freeze said...

Wow, how exciting! I'm also expecting #4 in the spring :) And before my first was born, we had several years of infertility. I am so glad we haven't had to "try" for a long, long time. After the first one came along, I've been really zen about all the others. Haven't tried, haven't prevented, and largely haven't worried about it. It's such a wonderful contrast to all the worry and stress we felt when we didn't know if we'd ever be able to have kids.

Natasha said...

So very many congratulations!!!

tana50 said...

Congratulations! The only thing better than four is five!

rachel said...

Whoop! So glad to hear it!!!!

Allysha said...

How wonderful! Congratulations.

Victoria Blanchard said...

wow. what a wonderful surprise for your family. happy for you.

Christine said...

congrats from New York City!

Cheryl said...

I remember when you said you didn't think you'd have any more after The Chief. :-) Congratulations! You and Chup make such beautiful babies. :-)

Whimcees said...

Congratulations!

A new little person to join your beautiful family! I am so happy for you! Wishing you everything good!

Hugs,

Barbara Diane

Ang Campbell said...

Just so incredibly thrilled that you get to do what you love most and do so well!! Congratulations!

The Atomic Mom said...

Wow, great news for Team Kendrick. When is this little doodle going to arrive-ish?

Autryville said...

Congrats, Cjane and family! I have four...which I never could have imagined, either. Now it's 'four is fabulous', the 'fourth is final' (and I mean it!). Lotsa good alliteration to go along with four. Lotsa good times, too. Busy. Fun. Blessed!

Sarah Jane said...

awesome. awesome. awesome.

Jessica said...

Such wonderful news! Congratulations!

NutfreeMom said...

Congratulations! How awesome for your kiddos to have another sibling! Have definitely missed your voice lately, hope this brings new adventures to share

Kristin said...

This is very happy news! I'm also pregnant with my fourth due in June. I was done at three but God know better. Hope you have a good pregnancy.

Erin L said...

Congrats. I am so glad this is the reason you have been MIA. I am ready for number 4, but the timing is not right. Some day...

Hf said...

Congrats! So happy for you guys!

Morris Family said...

Congratulations! I have 4 children and it's great. You make beautiful babies!

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Shari said...

Such exciting news, Jane!!! :)
Very happy for you and for that new baby that will
join your amazing family.

Martha Thomson said...

Yes you are. And I am so happy for you Enjoy....

Jill_ums said...

Congratulations!! I've missed your regular posting, and this might explain why. :)

Kelly Jean said...

ahhh!!!! so exciting!!! CONGRATS! your kids are so lucky to have you as their mama :)

Martha said...

while i will always picture you the free-wheeling, pink skirted, school-skipping teacher .... mother of 4 suits you just as perfectly. congrats!

Amanda said...

I love you C. Jane.

We're not in the same boat on some things, but on what matters in life we are.

I love how beautifully and perfectly you often express my own sentiments (your timing of posting them even lines up with my own thoughts on the same subject with the same conclusion). Though, you say them so much better than I feel I could.

I cried reading your thought of having babies with CK as your most favorite. perfection.

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Cannon's said...

So glad for your newest joy. I suppose this is good enough reason for not hearing from you as much. I'm currently writing a book (that you inspired me to pursue) so if you need some reading material for all those hours on the couch....just let me know. :)

Kimber said...

so exciting! congrats a million times over!

Esther said...

AMAZING! Those angels are sneaky. You are so brave and you're babies are gorgeous, so populate, Kendricks, populate!

elsieforever.com said...

And then there were 4 (babies)!... Super news and you look fabulous in spite of your sickies!

Morgan said...

Congratulations! I've got happy chills all over. What a beautiful reminder that God is so, so good and that wonderful things come to those who wait.

Just Jaime said...

Congrats!

Holly Decker said...

yay! you sure make cute ones! :)
congrats and know that number four is splindid. just got there, myself.

Emily in Wonderland said...

YAY! Congratulations! I laughed so loud when I saw THIS was the mischief that had been going on!

What is a goober? I thought it was a small cute, funny person, but you write about it more like it's a booger, something bad or dirty?

PLease clarify ASAP so I do not embarrass myself.

Sage said...

The more the merrier. I'm blessed with five. Started out infertile and seemed to be between each one. Much love to Chup and Courtney.

Ms George {Life at the Coop} said...

Yay! Congrats from a new follower. I think four is a perfect number!

SedonaMichelle said...

Yah!!! 4 babies - you guys are so awesome and so blessed!!!

Charlotte said...

Congratulations!! I am from 4 kids & so is my husband, yet people are surprised that we want a big family too. I think it will be awesome (and tiring, but mostly awesome. Lol!) u go girl!!

L3 said...

You know, you can't get pregnant while you're nursing. . . You have to put the baby down first.

My grandmother told me that and she had four children during the depths of the Great Depression.

She was also right.

karen gerstenberger said...

Congratulations to all of you - I'm thrilled for you! God is richly generous.

Laura said...

such good news! i'm so happy!

Sally said...

I am very happy for you! I also struggled with infertility - for five years before we finally had our first. Like you, I'm surprised every time I'm pregnant again. I'm now pregnant with my third. I never thought this day would come. :)

Harriet said...

Congratulations! That's so exciting!! :)

Keryn said...

You don't know me from Adam--er, Eve--but I love your writing, your honesty, and your blog. Congratulations on the pumpkin. :)

Tawnie said...

now this is my favorite post!
Congratulations!!

Colleen said...

Congratulations, Courtney. I am so glad you have successfully defeated your nemesis. You guys make beautiful babies.

Heffalump said...

That is lovely and wonderful news!

Janie said...

Congratulations Jane! Cjane that is because I call you Cjane in my mind :)
this:
"Of all the things I love to do in this world, having babies with Christopher Kendrick is my most favorite of all."

that is exactly the way I feel about my husband. We just had #6 and I want to say we are done but I just can't. So I have decided we will take a long break - maybe till the next life but I will never, ever say I am done having his babies. I just can't. It breaks my heart to say I'm done.

The Weed said...

Well, congrats! That's some seriously cool news.

Asia said...

C.Jane! I've been reading your blog for some time now and I'm delighted to hear this amazing news! Well done you (and Chup as well!!!).
All the best from Poland.

Diane said...

Congrats! I remember reading a post you write after having Erin where you said "you knew she would be your last" and I thought to myself "I don't think that will be the case." How fun. Happy for you. Hooray!

Coleen said...

You make it look so easy! Congrats!

Paula said...

Beautiful news from a beautiful family! Congratulations!!!

Butternutsage said...

I heard this news a few days ago on facebook and was wondering why you were laying low now we ALL know. CONGRATULATIONS CHRISTOPHER AND COURTNEY! I'll be matching you with my own tow children who have babies coming too! What a spring this will be! EXCITED! hugs and lots of love whooooshing your way ~Donna in Massachusetts

Townhouse Towny said...

Perhaps you're slated for one child for every year you waited and prayed? :)

Congratulations, it really is ridiculous how well God can make the same point about best-laid plans and His will, over and over again. Your story is absolutely amazing and a testament to that phenomenon. Hope you feel better soon!!

Diana Lesjak said...

Congrats... that's great news!!

Angela S said...

Congratulations!

Marvia said...

I'm so excited for you! I had my 4 babies close together as well. I'm sure happy for you and excited to read another one of your birth stories come Spring. What a beautiful part of life.

Veronica said...

Congratulations! Your children are lucky to have as cool and caring mom as you. Cheers

Stephanie said...

Woo hoo! What a pleasant surprise!

Amanda Cherry said...

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!

stephanie joy said...

blessed, blessed, blessed... you are truly blessed!
xoxo

stephanie joy said...

blessed, blessed, blessed... you are truly blessed!
xoxo

2busy said...

Congratulations on beautiful and growing brood. I saw a picture on facebook yesterday that was pretty funny. It was a picture of a jack-o-lantern in a maternity ward carved up to look like a woman in labor. "Shall be known as pumpkin" made me think of that picture.

eliana23 said...

Ah the surprises of life...Glad you are alive, have missed you lately.

Lyle said...

That totally rocks! This was the best news of the day so far.

Angela said...

Congrats!! I can't wait to have another myself! :)

Lydia said...

That's wonderful!!!

vintageblueballoon said...

yay!!!!!!!!! Congrats Jane! SO excited!!!! I am about to venture to #4 CRAZY! So fun!

Rachael said...

Yay! We have four, too :)

Andrew Fluckiger said...

Congrats COngrats!!!!!

If you get greasy cravings, go to the burger place by pioneer park. It's amazing.

This is AWESOME news!

Giulia said...

I AM SO HAPPY for YOU and CHUP! :) And the kids! CONGRATULATIONS!

Elizabeth said...

How wonderful - congratulations to you and your family!

It strikes me that the first opinion we get on a subject (infertile) seems to become the label - often despite 4 children (smile). What a good lesson for the day - the first opinion isn't always infinitely indefinitely correct - how nice to know that we will change and grow - hopefully for the positive.

Candice said...

I am so excited for you and Chup. I have to admit that every time you announce that you are expecting I am surprised. Not anymore. In a year or so if you makek another announcement I won't be surprised at all. Congratulations.

Erin said...

Congratulations!!!!
As a mom of one struggling for baby #2, I know how infertility can creep into your brain. Or, when you are confronted with it directly, as is our case again. So I am having surgery next week, and we hope to be pregnant by Christmas!

I am so happy for you!!!

Toni said...

Congrats, and they are all such cute babies!

Sharon said...

Congratulations!!!!

We always planned to have 6, but due to my other medical issues and the fact that I don't stay pregnant very well, it's "4, no more" for us.

Katie said...

what happy news!

Melissa F said...

Congrats!! So exciting!

Andrea said...

What water are you drinking? Send some my way! This infertile stricken gal is hoping things turn out for her like they have for you. Congratulations! :)

Melanie said...

I was going to say "I think it started in the bedroom", but maybe it was the kitche;) ... CONGRATULATIONS!

A FANCY DAY said...

So happy for you! You're such a good mama! Congratulations!

Pamela said...

Awesome news. Congrats!

thedoodlegirl said...

SO wonderful! Many congratulations!!

Camille Farias said...

I've been staring infertility down for almost nine years, and today I started the injections for in vitro. It was a VERY difficult decision, and reading your post today brought me a great deal of comfort. Thank you, for so many things, but especially for your post today.

cristie said...

Thrilled for you. xox

Hetrick family said...

Many congrats on going for 4, whether you were aware of "trying" or not :) What a blessing!!

Deanna said...

Wow--congratulations! Praise God for his continued blessings!

Amber Elizabeth said...

Aww, that's wonderful congratulations! What a blessing!

Amanda said...

Congratulations! Truly a happy blessing.

Jennifer B. said...

So happy! Love your ending. Just perfect.

Fay said...

Fantastic!

Susanne@Babyhuddle said...

WOW! Congratulations! To be told none.. to having four! I have just had my 3rd and my husband thinks we're done... can't imagine saying "that's it!" to be honest!
x

lawdy said...

Yay, now I can read another exceptional birth story. Happy Days! Congrats!

Emily Foley said...

CONGRATULATIONS!! This is huge! I have to say, I had my baby girl right before you had Ever and I'm just now getting to feel ready for another. And you'll have TWO MORE before I even think of one. You are amazing.

K Silvestro said...

Congratulations on your beautiful news. Wishing you health and joy in the beautiful (but, oh so busy) stage of life.

Kiar Shaw said...

So many congratulations. 4 is nothin, you got this! I have been desparate to get pregnant (we have 5) for a few months now, I feel like we are missing someone. I am so happy and jealous for you! lol!
But seriously, here's hoping for a splendid pregnancy, a safe of beautiful delivery and many joyous siblings that can't wait for this little one to show up!

Andi said...

That is a sweet post that brought tears to my eyes! congratulations. You are a wonderful mother and this sweet spirit will be blessed to be in your family!!

Jaana said...

Congratulations! :) :) :)

Melia said...

Congratulations!

Sammi said...

Huge congratulations Courtney :)

pollydove said...

Wow. Truly amazing. You are a lucky girl. And I LOVE how you said having Chup's babies is your favorite thing ... smile!

VALIE said...

Félicitations. Que l'attente soit belle... et confortable !
Happy, happy you !
V. (from France)

Shelby said...

How awesome! Your kids are adorable and I'm sure #4 will be too :)

Jenn said...

Congratulations!!! What a blessing!

theresa said...

My husband and I were married 7 years before we had our first child. 7 years of infertility, then BAM! We now have 6. Awesome, right!?

Aubrey said...

So wonderful! Congratulations! I hope this pregnancy goes well!

Sarah said...

Hip hip hooray!!! So excited for you all. I'm due with #5 in January, so my belly is starting to seem very pumpkin like.

mylifeasiknowit said...

I hope is a girl, you make the MOST BEAUTIFUL girls in the whole wild world

Silvy said...

many many congratulations!!! so happy for you!!! lovelove

Apseed said...

Wow! Congratulations! So so happy for you!!!!!

Kristin said...

SO happy for you--all of you. Congratulations!!!

Rachel-SuperMom said...

Dear CJane. I have been reading your blog for years and I just want to say how happy I am for you. I have two darling girls, 10 and 7 and wish I could have more. Maybe someday God will be kind enough to grant me this wish but for now I am blesses and SO ARE YOU, darling girl. Lotsa love.

Bessiemae said...

Congrats! How wonderful. :-)

kshannoka said...

Congratulations! You and Chup make wonderful parents!
Another home birth!

Sarah... said...

What fabulous news!!! SO excited for you, lady.

And grateful I can actually leave a comment that lets you know :)

Sarah Jane Innes said...

congrats on number 4! also congrats on not having the flu! which means congrats on no Flu infected family (which seems inevitable when mothers get sick)

dianna seabright said...

you and your family terrify me. your sister supports glenn beck. seriously? what is wrong with you guys? have you no brain, no critical thinking skills? no heart?

dianna seabright said...

yay! more religious drones!

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Whitney McCoy said...

First, congrats! 4 is fab.. I should know.. I have 4 myself. ;)

I did want to ask one thing though: How did you decide to have one more? I remembered reading in one of your postpartum posts, after Erin was born... and you mentioned getting the "complete" feeling..

You said...
"But the minute Erin was born I was encompassed by a feeling--a feeling of surprising certainty--that this baby was our last. And unlike my mother who spent years mourning for more maternity, I've been swooped up in a giant postpartum vacuum of love-dovey, over-flowy feeling that my life is complete.

Three.

It's got a nice ring to it, no?"

I only wonder what changed your mind? If it's too personal, I understand. Just curious mostly.

Julie said...

GIRL! Congrats! There must be something in the water, I'm prego with my first!! WHAT IS GOING ON HERE??

Amelia said...

Yippee! Nice work, you two!

Amy said...

Congratulations, lady! Looking forward to hearing what you name Pumpkin when baby arrives. :)

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SAS said...

Congrats. I love reading you daily. I figured something is up when I have been missing reading you daily. hope you feel better soon. I enjoy your take on motherhood, and would love a day of you all to myself.

bonbon said...

WAHOO! This is my first time ever commenting on your blog, but I have been reading for over a year. So excited for you!

mandyjanedesigns said...

I am so excited for you! I had my VBA2C baby the around the time you had your last and I too am expecting number 4! I love reading your posts and I LOVED your work in "The Gift of Giving Life." You are amazing and congrats!

Just Us said...

You make mighty cute babies! Congratulations!

April said...

oh for goodness sake! You are awesome! I am losing my mind with two. I wish you and pumpkin and the whole gang nothing but the best!

Janine said...

with tears in my eyes - a very big congratulations :)

Lee-Ann said...

Awww, that is awesome! Congrats!

Brambleberry said...

Congratulations!! So very exciting!!

Pink Panda said...

Congratulations! I caught your post this morning and thought "What?" and had to come find this post. I love your feminism, I love your zest for life, I love your writing- it is amazing. Here I am, having a media conversation (kind of!). Don't you love it?

Sinead Turner said...

Congratulations!! The same thing happened with us. 3 yrs of infertility and then one surprise after another until we had 3 girls. I was 9 wks pregnant with my second before I even guessed and then I tested because my friend thought I was pregnant. I was the girl with infertility who had been lucky and blessed to have one baby; that girl doesn't just get pregnant. oh how wrong I was. And again 2.5 yrs later. God has a funny sense of humor but the best timing ever. :)